Promises are meant to be broken....

i broke a promise ...

Just let go...

I'm letting it go....
i'm letting go off my cribby attitude
my obsession for trifle things
letting go off the small attention seeking bug in me
letting go off the insane ,cranky child inside
letting go off the bad thoughts,the junk and the spam inside my head
i'm dumping it all
clearing my system
doing a shift+delete
cleaning the Hard Disk ;)
making some space for the nice,helpul,kind, cheerful me ...
Coming soon your way is.....the new improved ME ....
watch out this space for more ....

People pushing me too far...

I just hope i dont break ... i know i won't ....
well thats the new me, all thanks to two of my real cool friends ...
one of them who's busy preparing for his wedding and the other who's ver KHUSH with his bachelorhood...I've promised the soon to be married to help him choreograph an Item number for his cocktail night .... Wah Wah ..thanks Boys for changing my attitude , for making me chill and for giving me soooooooo much of gyaan....

NOBLE EIGHT FOLD PATH

Thanks to a sweet friend for mailing me this,
Love you ....

Right Understanding
Right Thinking
Right Speech
Right Action
Right Livelihood
Right Effort
Right Mindfulness
Right Concentration


1. Right View
See things as they truly are without delusions or distortionsfor all things change. Develop wisdom by knowing how thingswork, knowing oneself and others.
2. Right Intention
Wholehearted resolution and dedication to overcoming the dislocation of self-centered craving through the development of loving kindness, empathy and compassion.
3. Right Speech
Abstinence from lies and deceptions, backbiting, idle babble and abusive speech. Cultivate honesty andtruthfulness; practice speech that is kind and benevolent.Let your words reflect your desire to help, not harm others.
4.Right Action
Practice self-less conduct that reflects the highest statement of the life you want to live. Express conductthat is peaceful, honest and pure showing compassion for all beings.
5. Right Livelihood
Avoidance of work that causes suffering to others or thatmakes a decent, virtuous life impossible. Do not engagein any occupation that opposes or distracts one from thepath. Love and serve our world through your work.
6. Right Effort
Seek to make the balance between the exertion of following the spiritual path and a moderate life that is not over-zealous. Work to develop more wholesome mind states, while gently striving to go deeper and live more fully.
7. Right Mindfulness
Through constant vigilance in thought, speech and action seek to rid the mind of self-centered thoughts that separate and replace them with those that bind all beings together.Be aware of your thoughts, emotions, body and world as they exist in the present moment. Your thoughts create your reality.
8. Right Concentration
Through the application of meditation and mental discipline seekto extinguish the last flame of grasping consciousness and developan emptiness that has room to embrace and love all things.

???

I been lookin' in the mirror
somethin's gettin' clearer
Wonderin' who am I
Just a chemical solution caught in evolution

Only livin' to survive
Or am I just another lifetime
lookin' for a lifeline
Cryin' when the sun don't shine
Am I runnin' through the ghetto
maybe I should let go
Of all the dreams inside

But who am I to reach so high
And who am I to raise my eyes
Want to liveI want to die
I can't do anything I'll tell you why -Rod Stewart

Flawed

Am i Flawed ????
just because i think...i know i think way too much
but does that mean there's a problem with me
A problem because i dont usually act selfish
problem bcos i put others interest before mine
problem bcos i go out of my way to help other
problem because i'm never rude to anyone,
problem bcos i dont snap at people,
problem because i'm generous with my compliments,
problem because i'm honest,
problem because i care,
problem bcos i have a heart,
problem because i'm concerned, concerned abt others,concerned abt all,
problem because i feel sad everytime i see ppl fighting,

Problem because i wanna stay HUMAN

and Flawed because i expect humanity from humans, it pains me when people are arrogant,impolite or rude but it kills me when my friends are like that...everyone has their share of problems ,but that doesnt give anyone any right to snap at friends or be rude
i have the so called friends who mean the world to me but to whom i'm probably nothing,
i've faced it recently when i was shown the mirror,when i had to face the bitter truth ...i dread the day when my other frnds would say the same, i know that day is coming soon cos i know its not their PROBLEM

it's my problem...i expect, and that's where i'm FLAWED...

but maybe it's true and maybe it' not....

How do you do ????

One of the so often repeated questions... how are you ???how u doing ??how do you do???
and we all know the answer yet we never stop asking....its always a "I'm fine ...thankyou"
it reminds me of Directorial debut movie of Rahul Bose "Everybody says...I'm fine"
but honestly we aren't
so many times i wast fine,but is till did nod
still said...umm..."ya ,am good"
it's like one of the norms u follow,the rules of the society....just to be polite

then aren't we all lying ,aren't we all liars ???

dont know abt the rest ,but i do go through a whole lot of emotions....
and i plan to write abt these soon,maybe one by one as to why i feel that way , the reason, the possible solution,what I can do and what i can't, and whether its a good reason for me to be feel that way or be in that MOOD
I feel happy and i feel sad
i feel Blessed and i feel bad
i feel like a princess and i feel like a pau'per
i feel strong and i feel weak
i feel abled and i feel helpless....
i feel something and i get frusturated
and i feel CONFUSED...almost all the time

Dreams ....

It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.

I have so many dreams, no wonder my life is sooooo interesting :D

Arrangements...

Today, i realised am not the only one who's open to arrangements
i met a whole lot of people who are at their own , in some way or the other ,in some kind of arrangement... its all according to their convenience
It's funny that i suddenly recall a good old friend telling me long back (He calls it the funda of his life) according to him "You just need to take care of YOURSELF,just keep yourself happy ,make YOURSELF the motto of ur life, ...and the rest would automatically fall in place,the rest of the people,the situations,their actions,reactions...everything "
And as Mr.Coelho said : "Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own".
So, forget everything,even i'll try to let go off these baggages and adhere to the following policy "You must always know what it is that you want "

YOU is all you have !!!

I Quit Acohol

not that i ever did drink that much....
but i've resolved to let go off those drops as well....
So, here's to a Sober me :D

Saint and the sinner-who decides ?????

Amazing Grace

Amazing grace! (how sweet the sound!)
That sav'd a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, And grace my fears reliev'd; How precious did that grace appear, The hour I first believ'd!
Thro' many dangers, toils, and snares,
I have already come;
'Tis grace has brought me safe thus far, And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promis'd good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail, And mortal life shall cease; I shall possess, within the veil, A life of joy and peace.
This earth shall soon dissolve like snow, The sun forbear to shine; But God, who call'd me here below, Will be for ever mine.

John Newton

hate to say it ...but it's 98.9% TRUE

You Have a Sanguine Temperament

You are an optimistic person who is easily content.You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything.A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better. You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun.A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours.You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much. At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness.A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily.You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.

What Temperment Are You?

true true

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...You're always up for a good time or conversationAnd you stick with your friends no matter whatYou may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

chk this out...

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

For someone who thought i was making up stupid lyrics to please him ... here you go :

It Didn't Mean A Thing I gave you all the love inside of my heart. But to you - It didn't mean a thing... ~*~ You toyed with my emotions - until finally I fell apart. But to you - It didn't mean a thing... ~*~ Never had I thought you could be so cruel. To turn and walk away - as I stood there crying in the rain... ~*~ Oh silly me - I thought you loved me too. But to you - Love's nothing more - than just a silly game.. ~*~ How you broke my heart - and you made me cry. On that dreadful day when you said goobye. ~*~ You left me feeling as though I could die. But to you - It didn't mean a thing... ~*~ The day will come - you'll give away your heart. But to her - it will be nothing more than a fling. ~*~ You'll know how it feels to fall apart. When you realize - that to her - your love didn't mean a thing. By: Trixie Love

Hope , now u believe that THIS song does exist "BIG DADDY"

BAD and SAD

There's something which is Bad
it's making me sad and driving me mad.. :(

“Sealing”- Seal what ?????

I’ve been thinking abt writing this for two weeks now, not too sure if u aware of the MCD Sealing drive that’s going on in the Capital city of India, my hometown, my birthplace, my Delhi…All thanks to the Supreme court’s order of Sealing illegal establishments/encroachments etc etc

Am happy and am sad, I’m what I’m best at: CONFUSED

If We go ahead, ya that would bring about an ideal place to live in, but that wd also mean more layoff’s, more closed shutters, increased unemployment, more people, less work, greater dependent population and a whole lot more economic problems besides the social unrest …
Backing out of this judgement or not completing this would mean:
· We do not abide by the judgement (the Supreme Court’s order !!!- The order which cannot be ruled out and the authority which has the power to run our country on its terms,along with the powers to choose our Leader)…only God knows where would this country go… but then there is the humanitarian ground (yup, the emotional call…)
· Would show the in competency of the government: the ruling party- they’ve anyways been at the receiving end of the public ire (whereas the opposition is Looving every moment of it ;) )
· It’s like dropping ur arm’s to SOME people on the road – I don’t have the data to validate what that SOME would account to though??? (But am sure its not worth the unrest in the capital)
· Last but not the least, they are there to SEAL the “ILLEGAL” COMMERCIAL ESTABLISHMENTS and not close all establishments…its Illegal, Illegal and just Illegal that they r after

Not backing out would mean a whole lot of more protest, more Bandh’s, more school days off, less man-hours, less productivity, lesser incomes, less GDP, less GNP, Fiscal Deficit… .Ok I think am losing it…before I turn insane, help me clear this confusion…but the why am I bothered, I Still have a JOB…its another off day @ work maybe, then y am I making a fuss???? – Humanitarian grounds maybe

Wedding Season ... Balle Balle :D

Hi,
I’ve been busy attending a whole lot of weddings; I attended a south Indian, Bengali and a weeklong Punjabi wedding celebration…I have loads to write …but that’ll have to wait cos rt now am more inclined on writing somthng else,sorry but promise I shall update u on this one soon…patience pays,…trust me on that